i am man

"i will do it" he spoke...but what he really said was "i am man"... i had never felt more injustice and inequality in my life...i could not keep my thoughts to myself...they came out forcefully ...with poise and strength...and pride....and a hint of validated anger...i am not afraid of him...he knows it

he looked at her across the room with eyes that physically beat her down...she is quite
i am not...at least non-verbally...i stare...glare...catch his eye and he knew my mouth would soon follow...in front of "friends"...he gracefully bowed out of this fight as his eyes cut to the wall...but i cannot protect her tonight when she is alone with him...i do not want to make it worse

but she is a fighter...he hits...she hits back..."i will not cry in front of him"..."i will be strong, he will never see me cry"...but we cry together...i hold her until she pushes me away...i hold her tighter...she is woman...she makes me proud..."it's worth it" she says..."it's worth it for him to beat me...so i can look him in the eyes with no tears"

our souls held hands immediately when we met...and have never let go

to see her cry fuels a part of me that has to be tamed...that wants to throw all rationale out for a temporary ass beating or at least a verbal lashing that leaves him with his dick between his legs and his pride smashed under both of our tiny powerful feet...

"where are you?"

"on the way home"

"you better be"

i grab for the phone in my mind and tell him what a fucker he is...how i will never look at him the same...how if he ever disrespects her in front of me...i will beat him down in every way i can...and scream to the world "WIIIIIFFFFFEEEEE BEATER" so everyone will know

and she lets you touch her...kiss her all over...and she is more gracious than i would ever be...or maybe smarter...planning...for the sake of safety and family she gives in...it makes me sick

i imagine myself on his back... arms wrapped tightly around his neck and pulling him backwards while she runs...i would take his pathetic beatings...for her to be able to run away forever...piece of shit

he looks at me with distrust...and he should...my loyalty lies with her...you hurt her...you hurt me...

you hit because you are scared and threatened...you hold her back because you know she deserves better than you...that she has a better life to live...that she is beautiful and brilliant...you hold her back because if she finds out these things about herself...about yourself...she will run....

the thing is...she already knows...